To be determined

I went to the dr today and she believes I am having a miscarriage. We will see when my numbers come back.

Caution

Well I came home last night and had to pee only to find I was bleeding. I have been laying down since and it isn't heavy but enough to scare me. Every feeling I have freaks me out. The dr says its probably nothing and I hope she is right. I decided I would call her again tomorrow and at least ask for a beta to ensure it is still going up!

Prayers need please!

Beta 2-

Today was my next milestone. I needed my beta to double in 72 hours so we were looking for a number around 200.
Well I am overachieving, it was 733!!!! Holy cow my mother might be right!
Next milestone is the ultrasound on 3/11. We will get to see Baby Russell and confirm 1 or 2.

Telling the Russells

We went I Sharon and Daryl's next. I missed Kyle telling his dad but they both came upstairs to tell Sharon. Kyle handed her my pee stick, it took her a minute but she started crying and of course we have to explain the mistake.
It also worked out nicely that Mandy and fam came by to drop off my 31 purse so Kyle got to do the same thing I her. She cried too.
Kyle went on to call David and Tina, Mamaw, Papaw, Mamaw Dottie, Bugs, Kim, Mike, Greg and Nick. He wouldn't let his mother tell anyone and he wanted to tell Joni in person since she is just down the street. Needless to say everyone was elated and so thankful as we are!!!
Thankful for such great in-laws that love me as much as Kyle! ;)

Telling the Klebers

As many of you know I talk to my dad several times a week driving home from work and sometimes that is a conference call with Mom and Todd. So I called Todd first because I knew he was in Richmond and just as he was trying to get off the phone with me I told him to hold on while I called mom who was talking to dad. I connected everyone and told them I got a 64 on my test. Of course they didn't get it but I said we were wrong about that test.
Everyone was happy and asking questions, mom asked for permission to cry.
Dad says he almost called to tell me to take another test and mom says she talked to God and he told her I was going to be ok. He also told her it was twins! Lol

Beta 1-

Thursday after my shocking positive HPT, I called the dr and apologized for not going on Wednesday and asked I I could make another appointment. My office urine test was so light I started to get worried but Ms. Devine told me something was going on and we would see what the blood test says.

I got a call that afternoon and it was a 64! That number is fantastic!

Surprise!

So I was supposed to go to the dr for my beta test last Wednesday. We decided to test at home the night before so we didn't have I miss work and have a break down in the parking garage. Well the test was negative. We were sad and took our time to grieve since these were our last frosties.

For some reason I took another test on Thursday morning. I absolutely expected to look over at a white test but surprise! It had two lines! I sent a picture to Kyle. Mind you be is driving with a guy from work to Carrollton. He handed the phone to the guy and asked him I look at the picture. He confirmed for Kyle that he "had a bun in the oven"! Meanwhile I sat on the toilet and laughed while crying. Wow!

Bad News x 3! Grrr!

Well I POAS tonight so Kyle and I could have our private time to process our emotions either way. I gave him the stick to watch but I knew the answer.

What can I say? It sucks, I'm mad, I'm sad, I feel cheated in all of this! Other people sneeze and get pregnant, those stupid teen mom shows (that I love to watch) get pregnant like bunnies!

Ugh! That's what I got! I guess we will go back to normal life like other people. I told Kyle we have been visiting this infertility dr for three years now, it's time to just relax and be us.

I know we will be ok eventually one way or another it just sucks!

TBC...

9dp7dt

I feel normal, absolutely normal! I don't know if that is good or bad but frustrating. Last night I had a dream I took 30 pregnancy tests and they were all positive. I still didn't believe it and then thought how the heck did I have that much pee? Lol

I guess I'm trying to visualize the embabies sticking and me having a big belly. That is actually hard but I'm trying. I also think we should take a test at home one of these evenings so our reaction will be at home and not in a parking garage.

Oh please let this try work!

7dp7dt

Today I woke up dizzy.  I took a shower and continued to get ready but couldn't shake the dizziness.  I am still feeling a little leftover from it but better.  Symptom of something, DRUGS, I say it is drugs.  No hopes up here. 

I'm just taking it day by day and most of them I feel absolutely normal which helps me ignore the entire situation.

I'm tired of dwelling on the negatives and the what ifs and just going with the flow!  I also refuse to get my hopes up, the fall is still hard without them high.

3dp7dt

Still hanging out on the couch doing nothing. I did finally finish my jigsaw puzzle after 14 hours.

Dad came over and brought Famous Dave's for lunch.

As for me, I feel absolutely normal and now I feel bored!

Special thanks to my friend Jean for dropping off some yummy cheese cake brownies from her birthday! Very kind!

1dp7dt

Today I will lay around and play games, so far I am still stuck on the same level of Candy Crush. If you play send me lives please! As for Ruzzle, my sister in law is whipping my tail! I've never gotten more than about 50 words, she has over 70!
As for me, I feel fine. A little bit of coughing but I have some drops for that. TBC

PUPO

Husband and I are driving home after a successful frozen embryo transfer. The kids looked great an AA and a BB. They are in there now so let's hope they are warm and snug!
I rubbed them and prayed for them. I'm trying to use visualization of implantation and a giant belly down the road like my friend Janna who looks miserable with her due date just a few days away.
Prayers, prayers, prayers! Thanks friends and family. Now for a weekend of relaxation and laying low with my hubs and fur babies.

RE Appointment - Lining Check

I got a call this morning to move my appointment up which was probably for the best.  I felt myself being tense thinking about the cervical stitch that awaited...

So I went in and did my usual blood pressure, told the nurse about my bleeding issues and all the drugs I'm on.  They ask you this every time you go and I list things for a good minute.  I think they are testing me.

So Ms. Devine comes in the room and checks me, says my lining is 9.2!  That is darn good after my issues last week.  She said I am good to go and released for my transfer Friday at 11am. 

Of course I couldn't escape the stitches, she swabbed some numbing gel up there and left me to wait.  I took the Ipad this time so I had something to take my mind off the uncomfortable position.  Dr. Homm came in about 5 minutes later and began the torture!  I don't care how much they try to numb things it doesn't work!  Thankfully he is pretty quick about it and sweet nurse Donna did her best to distract me with questions about my weekend and the super bowl.  I on the other hand was instantly sweating and really tried to focus on Donna.  Now I know why they make you put your Ipad down and spit out any gum!

So now I get my prescriptions for Doxycylone and Prednisone ready as well as the Crinone and Xanax.  I will also continue taking Estrogen pills, patches, Vitamin, Folic Acid, DHA, Magnesium, Baby Aspirin... I think that is all?

Asking again for any prayer you are willing to send our way!