Today was Beta day that I was so impatiently waited for. I was not prepared that the dr would have me do a urine test when I got there. After I did my blood work I waited for the dr in the conference room.
I knew what she was going to say unfortunately, I just knew it. She said it was no good. I did so great through the whole IVF process and had such good reports, she really thought it would have worked. You just can't control your body :(
Thankfully we have 4 frosties that are in excellent condition for a frozen transfer in December. Ugh! Another three months :(
I spent the next hour in the parking garage crying followed by a melt down at mcD's when the drive thru lady said they were cash only... Ugh!
I don't just feel like my body let me down but it also let Kyle down as well as our family.
Stay positive. Your body didn't let anyone in your family down, nor did it let Kyle down. This is a very trying process that none of us are familiar with, and we are definitely sending all of our hopes and prayers your way. If this happens, then it was meant to be...if it doesn't, than it just wasn't, sister. God has a plan for everyone...and I know you are probably tired of hearing this, but I truely believe it. This just wasn't your time.
ReplyDeleteYour friends and family are here...we are your support system, NO MATTER WHAT. We love you and Kyle so much, and we will love your little "Frosties" just as much (and probably more :) ) when (and if) we get to meet them!
Now, we keep our fingers crossed and pray like no other for December! Some really good things have come from September (which will be your approximate due date)....like Amanda, Labor Day, Amanda, Rosh Hashanah, Amanda, Autumn, Amanda, etc (you get my point ;)). We love you all so much and we will stand beside you through all of this. If you need anything, start to get frustrated, or start to feel like giving up, look to your side, and there you will find your loving husband, your family and all of your friends. <3
Such kind words! Thank you sister. Today is a new day to start facing foward for us. We took our time to grieve and just be sad that we continue to hit brick walls. My brother was born in September too! Lots of good stuff from September :)
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