My number was 243 which is falling. I guess we should be grateful to have a week of happiness but I am struggling with that. Why did God give us a positive, why did he let us actually get excited? Why let our number fly up only to come crashing down. There are so many questions that I just can't figure out and probably never will.
I can't help but feel punished and beat down. I will work through it, build my wall back up and move on.
