My number was 243 which is falling. I guess we should be grateful to have a week of happiness but I am struggling with that. Why did God give us a positive, why did he let us actually get excited? Why let our number fly up only to come crashing down. There are so many questions that I just can't figure out and probably never will.
I can't help but feel punished and beat down. I will work through it, build my wall back up and move on.
Kathy, I really don’t have words to express how sorry I am. I felt your happiness with pregnancy as mine happiness too due to fact that we both had similar stories at the same time and with your pregnancy I felt that there is some hope for me too... devastating news.
ReplyDeleteIf there is any wisdom in this mess, facts are that:
- you and your DH don’t have any problem with having embryos
- you don’t have any problem with the implantation (otherwise there would be no BETA)
The rest are just numbers (ugly, ugly numbers which we are reading all the time on our forum, RE’s office…, stating that there is some % of pregnancies which unfortunately ends up with miscarriage). Odds, nothing more than odds...
We have to fight, manage financing, time… Not easy but I am sure we’ll win! Big hug to you… hope to see you soon on some thread again.
Love,
D